realized this world is somehow cruel than human

Today, a bit tired due to the staining....i was thinking this sem what pointer i will go for....will i be still 3.0above???or i will drop....because this sem i really can't concentrated...i was too concentrated on my maple....how could i let my study a side and no more concern about it.....i should get to know study is freaking important in my life. I know that during secondary study im not hardworking as others.....and now i am so hardworking to boost up my cgpa...i've try...really!!! No jokes..... I was so envy where all my friend who's top scorer...they are really putting efford inside and did not requested for anything back....as in Anime Fullmetal alchemist said...''等价交换''....it means what you have put efford inside should get any pays back.....it does make sense. But in this reality world, it is not. What efford you put the god doesn't pays back what you should get. And i started to know that put efford doesn't means that we should get back what we need..... atleast we are enjoying and appreciated it what we've done. That should be enough for most individual. And although maintain or achieve distinction result is my one and only hope when i enter the MLT course....i will still considered this is my goal to achieved...and if this sem cannot boost my CGPA, i will try in next semester. I know that if i really put efford, the god will take care of us...i really miss my friend in raintown...my parent...my sibblings.....my best friend who's fighting for their coming STPM.....i really miss you all did you know that??i wish i can back home as soon as possible...i want back to my home sweet home...i want to kiss my dog lips...i want to lye on my sweet bed without any stress!!! i want to eat nice breakfast...i want more and more and more~~~~~~~~~~~~